I am awkward as ass. It’s a known fact. However if you know me you probably don’t think so: because. you. know. me. When I meet new people I am confused and try desperately to find a common ground to stand on while I try to start conversation. It usually consists of “how do you know ‘so and so’” or “oh, i like your outfit where did you get it?” It’s reality and I’m ok with it.
The true reality of things is I that I am so perpetually single lately and honestly a hopeless romantic at heart that I see most things as opportunity… movie-like opportunity. I randomly meet guys and think oh this could be a cute story. I avoid eye contact when I meet someone I think could be cute and fun to hang out with. I picture myself eventually pushing the curls out of my eyes and looking up at who I am talking to only to see someone looking back at me just as awkwardly as I am. One can only hope.
Let it be known that I am not hard on myself and truly do not see myself as #unDateable as I so often claim. For, that is a joke and I am aware that no one is truly UnDateable, but we all do things that we may see within ourselves as unsavory when given the opportunity to be with the right person… or really the wrong person…. we all have to learn.
The point of this whole long-winded diatribe is that there is someone for everyone. I know this. You know this (whoever you are that happens upon this) And eventually things work out the way they are supposed to. I joke that I will never find anyone again, or anyone who “gets” my work and my sense of humor… but that is not fair because I have a very small criteria for those who date me. Get along with my friends, and make me laugh. Other than that I have nothing. The minute you start to focus on sexual proclivity, race, build, or height you loose the true meaning of love. I never want to lose that or become so jaded that I no longer can look beyond superficial attributes. We are all missing a piece. A piece we eventually find and fit perfectly with. It just takes time to change your shape to make things fit the way you never expected they ever possibly could.